There are two kinds of pain on this planet. The pain of not evolving, which always leads to more of the same . . . the same anxious thoughts, stressful feelings, traumatic experiences, overwhelming frustrations, constant disappointment, and the agonizing feeling of never having enough of anything – time, money, or love.
When we’re stuck and paralyzed within the limitations of our comfort zone, we remain trapped in a false sense of security anchored to the outer world. We are heavily invested in believing our survival is dependent upon how other people and circumstances show up or don’t show up for us.
Our sense of personal responsibility feels as though it has been abdicated to the whims of the wind and whichever way it may blow, on any given day. That is why, deep down, we feel so incredibly powerless and left without a sense of belonging or purpose.
I know all of this to well because I used to be that person and that was the price I paid, as do so many others. Even though I had been on a spiritual journey my entire life, and I’m talking all the way back to when I was 9 years old attending private school and giving a sermon to my 3rd grade class on John 3:16, that it wasn’t until my mid 30’s that I started catching a snap as to how this life thing really works.
Which leads me to the second pain . . . the pain of evolving past self sabotage and into self love. The pain of feeling, for the first time in a very long time, all that we have suppressed and kept hidden. The pain of letting go of our “Charlie Brown” thinking and truly surrendering to a Universal energy that really does “have our backs.”
The pain of letting go of the part of us that controls, judges, assumes, and is addicted to having the guarantee before we act upon our faith or listen to our intuition. Essentially, it’s the pain of energetically growing up and taking off our training wheels. The path to joy and freedom is not always full of unicorns and fairy dust.
At least it hasn’t been that way for me, and for those of you whom I’m very honored to work with, it hasn’t been that way for you either.
When I feel the most vulnerable to succumbing to the I know mind, I am reminded of the beautiful words of Oriah Mountain Dreamer, “It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living, I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.”
All of that sounds good and, yet, the reality of living that is a whole different story. To truly embody the essence of what she speaks of is not a pleasant journey. But neither is staying immobilized by the smallness of a comfort zone and all of the anxiety, stress, worry, and fear that goes along with it.
It’s a free will planet that we inhabit. It’s set up for us to choose. One path leads to a type of spiritual and emotional death. The other leads to “meeting your heart’s longing.” A Course In Miracles teaches us that there is one of two things going on at any given moment, we either choose love or we choose fear. And that is all that is ever going on.
So let us consider in every moment the spiritual, mental, and emotional price we are paying for our self sabotaging choices. And then let us consider once again the liberation, freedom, and joy that faithfully comes in the morning after the dark night of the soul is over.
The beautiful thing about truth is . . . once we have it, we never lose it. Once we regain a sense of ourselves, we never forget it. When our eyes and heart open with clarity and focus, they are never as susceptible to being dulled and closed as they once were. Essentially, once we come to know ourselves as love, we can’t ever go back to not knowing that.
The question is . . . what journey and which pain is most worthy of our energy, effort, time, attention, and focus? The comfort zone? Or becoming the grandest version of ourselves? The only thing that really separates the two journeys is what we get in the end. One leads to more suffering. The other leads to freedom from the suffering.